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10 November 2011 @ 01:34 am

in reverse


dear someone watching from the shadows, i'm clenching water in my fists - the drops, they slip right through my fingers, but there's water on my lips, water on my lips. born of a sign that carries vessels but in a month that brings just ice, i know i question things too quickly but i've never wondered if i've loved. dear someone watching from the shadows, you've seen me lose all the water from my hands. i'm not a skillful water carrier, but the raindrops keep falling on my head, falling on my head. born of a sign that carries water but in a month that brings just ice, i'm not a skillful water carrier, but i've learned to carry love, learned to carry love...
「how soon is now」

i am the son and the heir of a shyness that is criminally vulgar. i am the son and heir - oh, of nothing in particular. you shut your mouth, how can you say, i go about things the wrong way? i am human and i need to be loved just like everybody else does. there's a club, if you'd like to go, you could meet somebody who really loves you. so you go, and you stand on your own and you leave on your own and you go home, and you cry and you want to die. when you say it's gonna happen "now" - well, exactly when do you mean? see i've already waited too long and all my hope is gone.
「toy boy」

i'm a wind-up toy in an up down world, if you leave me all alone, i'll make a mess for sure. i've a heart of gold in the smallest size; leave me in the dark, you'll never hear me cry. more than an illustration, points of articulation, come to life on a brass spring, such a wonderful plaything. it's a cruel blue cross that i have to bear, come a little close i'm going to pull your hair. more than just a toy in a patch-blue suit - hold me in your arms, i'm just a boy like you. but your mama thought there was somethin' wrong, didn't want you sleeping with a boy too long. it's a serious thing in a grown-up world - maybe you'd be better with a barbie girl.

you wear guilt like shackles on your feet, like a halo in reverse. i can feel the discomfort in your seat - and in your head it's worse. there's a pain, a famine in your heart, an aching to be free. can't you see? all love's luxuries are here for you and me. and when our worlds they fall apart, when the walls come tumbling in...though we may deserve it, it will be worth it.